Lost

I never realised that I've relied on you so much that I've lost my independence.
I'm so afraid. Afraid of going out and having fun with others.
I don't know why.
I can't comprehend the feeling.
Once again I've believed you and once again you destroyed it.
How long is this going to keep up for.
I thought it was easier now, and the pain would be lesser.
But I was wrong.
The pain is still the same, and it's still equally hard.

You said if I really love you I'd be able to wait and trust you.
But if you really love me why aren't you able to stop what you're doing?
No matter how much I love you, you're still hurting me deeply.
I really wonder how much more I'll be able to withstand before I start torturing myself again.
Sure the torturing myself part has stopped.
But I got a feeling it'd be back soon..
Cause tonight, it nearly happened.

I love you. I really do..


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Nails

I just did my nails today! Now it's soooo cute! :D




Mm, but I'm thinking of either doing the LV design or the Chanrl design next time. :)







After doing my nails, walked around with Kharyian.
She bought some clothes, I bought a tee.
And she bought new heels!
She's gna wear them tomorrow and I'm wearing my heels too! :)
Wanted to wear my clogs, but it's soooo effing high I'll probably fall while walking. :(
So decided to wear the other.







Most likely gna wear either of the above to school tmr. :)


















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Loser

How many times must you abandon me.
How many more times must you lie to me.
How many more days will this go on for.
Why do I still believe you.
Why do I still trust you.
You'll just abandon me again.
When I think I've once again found my safe haven, you'll smash it within the next few minutes.
Despite that, I still believe in you.
WHY.
why can't everything be the same.
Why must there be changes in life.

Tired.. Bored..

It's 3:56am now.
I'm so tired, but I don't feel like sleeping. :(
I haven't blogged for so long! So lazy to do so. Hahaha.
Anyway, I got an iPhone now. And I took some pictures. Shall post them here. :)
























Debating with myself if I should sleep now. :( but it's boring! D:

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