I miss you

I got to be stronger.
I can't keep keeping things to myself thinking that there'll always be someone there for me when I break down.
I'm regretting that i relied on you so much.
I'm so tired, stressed, sad.
I got no one to go to.
No one to cheer me up, no one to give me a hand, no one to comfort me.
I miss you. I really do.




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don't know what to put

:'(
If we were still together, yesterday, 20 september 2010, would have been our 3years and 11 months anniversary.
Shit.. shouldn't have started this post. I feel like crying now. _l_

Feel so lifeless now. Everyday nothing to do, and I don't feel like going out.
I just want to lie down on my bed and listen to songs. :B
But I have assignments to do, and I'm so freaking lazy. PFFT.
Don't feel like going to school anymore. It's so boring. Everything is boring now. Nothing interests me.
I hate myself.

Braided headband

Siti bought for me a silver braided headband!
Love it so much!
Thanks siti! <3

Gna celebrate Helena's birthday tomorrow. :)
I ordered a t-shirt last saturday, and i wanted to wear it tomorrow and it hasn't arrived.
I'm so fucking annoyed.

Anyway, today i bought this 'Loose powder' in school, some American brand.. $16.90
bought the transparent color, so when i apply it, it's like glittery? Or should i say shiny? haha.
And i also bought nude lipstick, white eyeliner, and concealer after school at wattsons. :B

peekture.

See below photos.

One eye got contact lens, the other don't have.

SO BIG DIFFERENCE LOR.

Left eye got contact lens

Right eye no contact lens

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I love you

I thought I could move on. I Didn't feel anything for a few days. I thought I had gotten better.. But I was wrong. When you suddenly messaged me again, all of my suppressed feelings started surging out. I thought we could start anew. But after a few days, you abandoned me again. You just left me hanging there. Why did you even give me hope again when you're gna abandon me once again! How can you do this to me! How can you be so selfish.. Just doing it the way you want. Just toying around with my feelings.

Although

Though it's getting better, but memories still haunt me and it isn't helping.
When those memories start flooding my mind, I can't control my tears. No matter how hard I try to stop, the tears won't.. They seem to have a mind of their own.

I'm suffering.
I feel like dying.
I want to end this pain.


Went out with my family today.
Went to ion, ate.
Went to louis vuitton and got my wallet.
Then went to the rolex shop, dad and mum each got a watch.
Mad expensive.









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Instax

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Contradictions

Although I really really love you, sometimes I feel like hating you too.
The way you treat me.. It's like I'm nothing to you, just a toy to play with when you have the free time and when you feel like it.
You dont prioritise me.
You don't make time for me. I'm just for you to fill up the extra minutes of your life.


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:)

I miss you


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