Random, I don't know what to put for the title

Okay,

Friday:

Went out with Tricia to get stocks for our blogshop; http://greenponies.blogspot.com <
Then went to the studio for photoshoot, but :/ failureee. hehehe.
So decided to go back the next day(today).

Then we left, she cabbed to somewhere, i went to dhoby ghaut, wanted to take bus home.

But.. So freaking lazy, carrying so many stuffs as well.

So decided to go over to park mall to eat first, since i haven't eaten for the whole day.

When i went to park mall, suddenly so many thoughts/memories came rushing to my mind.

I tried so hard to control it while i was buying my food.

But when i sat down and starting eating, tears started flowing out of my eyes. :'(

So embarrassing, hope no one saw that, cause i kept looking down, using my hair to cover my face. xD

After eating, which was around 730pm, i went to the toilet to 'hide' till 8pm(after peak hour) so i can cab home. hehe.

Then when i reached home, CAMWHORE!!

And with my sister, i help her draw eyeliner, and thought her how to take photos. Hahaha.

But well, she's not that good yet!!

AIYA. TOO many photos la. Go to my FACEBOOK see ok? :D

Saturday:

Met Tricia at the studio today. <:
Then prepared and started the photoshoot!
I tried some. But i'm too ugly & fat :'<
So i deleted alot of photos. hehe.

When all started

When all of this started, I still used to harbor hope, and I'm always looking forward to the day I'll be waiting for, waiting aimlessly at home for your texts and calls, but after a few months, I realized that you wouldn't text me out of the blue, you wouldn't be giving me any calls, and we wouldn't be meeting so easily like we used to.
You told me to wait, and I will..
I love you. I won't ever stop waiting for you. But I hope my waiting for you won't be in vain..

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held you hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me"

Okay shit, wtf is wrong with me seriously!!!!
My mood is like:

YANGWANLIN

wahahahaha.
Bought the clogs already. Super happyyyyyyyyy.
But then, the clogs are damn high. T.T Don't know if i can walk in them. :(

hehehe,

Meeting Tricia tmr! Miss her sooo much!
So long never meet her alr. :( boooohoooooooo.

Tmr going to find stocks, and then have photoshoot(?)

Tricia's gna be the model! Yippeeee.

The online store SURE prosper one. :D

Friends

Went out with jiahui to bugis a few days ago.

WAAAAA. wore wedges out for the first time. My little toes had blisters. :( And my feet hurt like hell.
Thought i was gna die. :'(
Then around evening, we went to Yishun and met Helena, and ate dinner :D
Miss both of them soooo much. <3

hehe, so lazy to upload all of it.

They are all up on facebook! :D :D

Anyway, can't wait to go out with tricia on friday!

And i SERIOUSLY want these wooden clogs. D:

As well as this pair of wedges!!

Woah

I really wish to roll down the stairs and hit my head.
It'd probably be the easiest way out.
Yeah, I just want to run away and hide myself from all the problems.
It's just too tiring for me to keep going on.

I'm probably going to lock myself up at home.
Don't feel like going out at the moment.
I feel like I'll fall apart and break into tiny pieces if I do.
That's how insecure I feel.

Help me out a little

I wish someone would hold my hand and guide me through.
It used to be you to lead me to the light, but you're now the one that's casting the darkness over me.

Changes

Things have changed so much.
I'm slow in adapting to changes especially if it leaves a great impact in my life.
To say the truth, i'm not sure if it's because the pain is no longer there or i'm just getting used to it.
It no longer affects me that much to the extent that i'll be crying everyday.
I thought things had went back on the right track, but it all came crushing down on me again.
I really felt like giving up everything, I really felt like breaking down.
I'm now able to stop thinking and focus on watching dramas, animes and such. It really keeps my mind occupied.
Well, is it running away and not being able to face the truth?
I'm not sure.. But it sure is helping me.

I'm so used to being next to you

Life for me is not the same

Theres no-one to talk to

Don't know why I let it go too far

Starting over it's so hard

Seems like everywhere I try to go

I keep thinking of you