Afraid

:'(
I was getting better at not thinking about it.
I was getting better at not feeling the pain.
Somehow the 'getting better' has stopped.
I have no idea why.
The heartaches, tears, pain and hurt; feeling them frequently all over again.

Yeah, I wna meet you soooo bad.
I miss you so fucking much.
But I'm afraid..
You're no longer mine.
I'm afraid of the aftermath.. The excruciating pain in my chest when you leave me once again.
Tell me, how can I stop feeling?
I want to rid of all emotions, I no longer wna feel.
If there's no happiness, then no pain, suffering and sadness would come.
How I wish someone would take them away..

I miss you.
I love you.